Taking it head on.

IceDragon · 06-24-2008, 05:16 PM

All last week, I've had hardly any appetite and I've literally had to force myself to eat and thursday I was supposed to be doing deadlifts - and I didn't even manage to put up 170, just couldn't do it.

So, I've been kicking myself up the butt and I've picked apart EVERYTHING to find out where I'm going wrong.

With that in mind, I'm being completely straightforward and honest, and here's where I''m going wrong. Feel free to comment, but I'm not going to go easy on myself. I need to change things, and denying anything's wrong is probably what's keeping me in the same f*cking place physically.

1. Diet.
It's first on the list because it's the primary source of me holding myself back. BG has already told me how to do this but did I listen?

Yep, I did. But did I do anything about it?

Hel no I didn't.

"Oh, I'll do it tomorrow". Well f*ck tomorrow, it needs to change now and it needs to be sustainable so I've written this and worked it out to X amount of cals based entirely on what BG recommended but altered to foods I actually like (sorry BG, you know you're shithot with food but I just can't stomach one more bowl of f*cking oatmeal, I hate that shit)

1: Small bowl mini weetabix, whey protein, 1/2 grapefruit.
2: 100g pineapple, 100g ff natural yogurt, whey protein (post-workout)
3: 130g can tuna, 1/2 cup brown rice (no fat), salad (made of 1/2 cup lettuce, 1 tomato, 1/2 beetroot, 1/2 onion, 1/2 pepper, no dressing)
4: 250g salmon fillet, salad (as above quantities).
5: 250g chicken breast, 80g soya beans, 20g sweetcorn, carrot (1 medium).
6: Whey protein, 15g ff cottage cheese (about all I handle before I begin to gag unfortunately).

Entered all quantities into fitday accurately (yep, even weighed all that stuff for once first). 1891 cals: 35% carbs, 55% protein, 10% fat.

Other protein sources include eggs, prawns or shrimps, nuts, etc so I'll kind of rotate everything instead of having the same damn thing every damn day (probably a big part of my boredom with it).

2. Sleep.
Or lack thereof. I have a little one that's nearly four so sleep isn't something I tend to get a lot of, but I still persistantly stay up past 2300, even knowing full well that Phoebe will be up around five-ish.

My own fault, so kick up own butt incoming. Bed before 1030 every night.

No more of this shit.

3. Um...
Actually, I don't have anything to put here yet. I'll give it a week for the new diet and extra sleep to sink in before I start looking at other areas I need to improve. The lack of intensity in the gym could be down to either of those two, same with my lethargy.

We shall see, so watch this space.

Anyway, feel free to have a whinge or comment, I certainly need it at any rate. I'm currently in my "don't want to do anything because I'm a slob and it's that lazy time of the month" mood and I'm pissed at myself, so go for it.

Note to self: I know this shit already - why the hel am I still apparently sabotaging myself???

Big Guns · 06-25-2008, 02:55 PM

VERY GOOD. I like the diet, clean..healthy. I would however lower you meats to around 170g that equal 6oz which will be in the neighborhood of 38g of protein. that would be plenty for you. I hear ya on the oatmeal...that's why I grind it into powder and mix it in my shake.

Advice:
just make small goals at first. This week I am in bed at 10:30om and I will stick to my diet. Let yourself get into the "good" grove before you move to another goal.

The eating thing is a bitch. Right now "summer" I am not that hungry and I have been missing meals all week. I don't beat myself up...I just try to do better tomorrow.

Kids are a handful. My 1yr old grandson takes up all my time when he visits, but that's OK...he's a child and desrvse to always be smiling no matter how I feel. The only good thing is he's hungry every 3 hours so he reminds me to eat!!

Hang in there girl. You'll get there. Make it enjoyable. Take you kid out for some play exercise.

IceDragon · 06-30-2008, 07:58 AM

I did as you suggested BG, and lowering the amount works for me. At least I don't feel like I'm stuffing myself silly for no reason.

I've had one cheat meal since I started on this - and that was on my day off.

It's getting there.

06-24-2008, 05:16 PM	#1
IceDragon Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: East Anglia, UK Age: 30 Posts: 2,173 Height: 5'8" Weight: 154 lbs Rep Power: 51835	Taking it head on. All last week, I've had hardly any appetite and I've literally had to force myself to eat and thursday I was supposed to be doing deadlifts - and I didn't even manage to put up 170, just couldn't do it. So, I've been kicking myself up the butt and I've picked apart EVERYTHING to find out where I'm going wrong. With that in mind, I'm being completely straightforward and honest, and here's where I''m going wrong. Feel free to comment, but I'm not going to go easy on myself. I need to change things, and denying anything's wrong is probably what's keeping me in the same fcking place physically. 1. Diet.* It's first on the list because it's the primary source of me holding myself back. BG has already told me how to do this but did I listen? Yep, I did. But did I do anything about it? Hel no I didn't. "Oh, I'll do it tomorrow". Well fck tomorrow, it needs to change now and it needs to be sustainable so I've written this and worked it out to X amount of cals based entirely on what BG recommended but altered to foods I actually like (sorry BG, you know you're shithot with food but I just can't stomach one more bowl of fcking oatmeal, I hate that shit) 1: Small bowl mini weetabix, whey protein, 1/2 grapefruit. 2: 100g pineapple, 100g ff natural yogurt, whey protein (post-workout) 3: 130g can tuna, 1/2 cup brown rice (no fat), salad (made of 1/2 cup lettuce, 1 tomato, 1/2 beetroot, 1/2 onion, 1/2 pepper, no dressing) 4: 250g salmon fillet, salad (as above quantities). 5: 250g chicken breast, 80g soya beans, 20g sweetcorn, carrot (1 medium). 6: Whey protein, 15g ff cottage cheese (about all I handle before I begin to gag unfortunately). Entered all quantities into fitday accurately (yep, even weighed all that stuff for once first). 1891 cals: 35% carbs, 55% protein, 10% fat. Other protein sources include eggs, prawns or shrimps, nuts, etc so I'll kind of rotate everything instead of having the same damn thing every damn day (probably a big part of my boredom with it). 2. Sleep. Or lack thereof. I have a little one that's nearly four so sleep isn't something I tend to get a lot of, but I still persistantly stay up past 2300, even knowing full well that Phoebe will be up around five-ish. My own fault, so kick up own butt incoming. Bed before 1030 every night. No more of this shit. 3. Um... Actually, I don't have anything to put here yet. I'll give it a week for the new diet and extra sleep to sink in before I start looking at other areas I need to improve. The lack of intensity in the gym could be down to either of those two, same with my lethargy. We shall see, so watch this space. Anyway, feel free to have a whinge or comment, I certainly need it at any rate. I'm currently in my "don't want to do anything because I'm a slob and it's that lazy time of the month" mood and I'm pissed at myself, so go for it. Note to self: I know this shit already - why the hel am I still apparently sabotaging myself??? __________________ Critical Mass for Mod. Enuff said.

06-25-2008, 02:55 PM	#2
Big Guns Mr. TRIONIX Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Colorado Age: 45 Posts: 2,073 Height: 6'2" Weight: 213 Rep Power: 16660	Re: Taking it head on. VERY GOOD. I like the diet, clean..healthy. I would however lower you meats to around 170g that equal 6oz which will be in the neighborhood of 38g of protein. that would be plenty for you. I hear ya on the oatmeal...that's why I grind it into powder and mix it in my shake. Advice: just make small goals at first. This week I am in bed at 10:30om and I will stick to my diet. Let yourself get into the "good" grove before you move to another goal. The eating thing is a bitch. Right now "summer" I am not that hungry and I have been missing meals all week. I don't beat myself up...I just try to do better tomorrow. Kids are a handful. My 1yr old grandson takes up all my time when he visits, but that's OK...he's a child and desrvse to always be smiling no matter how I feel. The only good thing is he's hungry every 3 hours so he reminds me to eat!! Hang in there girl. You'll get there. Make it enjoyable. Take you kid out for some play exercise. __________________ http://www.trionix.com I stopped chasing my dreams....so I asked where the were headed.......I'll catch up to them later http://www.theanimalrescuesite.com

06-30-2008, 07:58 AM	#3
IceDragon Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: East Anglia, UK Age: 30 Posts: 2,173 Height: 5'8" Weight: 154 lbs Rep Power: 51835	Re: Taking it head on. I did as you suggested BG, and lowering the amount works for me. At least I don't feel like I'm stuffing myself silly for no reason. I've had one cheat meal since I started on this - and that was on my day off. It's getting there. __________________ Critical Mass for Mod. Enuff said.

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